The Closer

Hi Friends,

No, I'm not referring to the TV show.  I am referring to the shift I've been working a lot lately.  When I first started as a supervisor I was supposed to have one or two closes a week and the rest would be midday shifts.  Now it seems I am closing four days a week with only one mid.  How do I feel about this?  I feel tired.

Yesterday a friend sent me a text recalling the days when she had a job working evenings and she put into words exactly what I've been feeling.  "...when you work nights often your whole day revolves around going to work.  For me it always felt like having no day, no night, and then going to bed."  Pretty much sums up where I'm at.  And then add to the mix a dog that needs to be walked in a climate where early mornings or evenings are the coolest times.  And of course early mornings are when I am sleeping so that leaves evenings which is when I am working.  Sigh.  I think you get the point.

I also just realized that I hardly ever cook more than a black bean burger anymore.  I mostly bring PBJ's to eat on my meal break at work and making a big meal for lunch before I go to work just doesn't happen.  I have a freezer full of my favorite spaghetti sauce but not the time or ambition to make a spaghetti dinner!

So what is the answer?  I'm not exactly sure.  I did have a job interview this week for a position that is similar to what I used to do.  With day time hours.  However they said they wanted to make a decision that day and I have heard nothing so I'm not feeling all that hopeful about that particular job.  Sometimes I daydream about just quitting my current job though the reality is I have too much integrity to do that.  So I will keep on keeping on and also keep applying for jobs that are in alignment with where I want to be.

For the most part I can stay positive and hopeful about something coming along.  I do have my moments when I just want to wallow in self pity for a little while but then it's onward.  Marilyn, I didn't know your mother but if she can help I'm all for it!  Please and thank you!

Until next time...
Peace & Love,
Hope