A Moment of Clarity

Happy Tuesday Peeps,

The other morning I had to get up at 4:30 to get ready for work.  I'm not sure if it was sleep deprivation or the sheer fact that no one should have to be up and functioning at that hour but I had this moment of clarity.  For a brief instant I could see my life objectively.  I could see the magnitude of what I had done by picking up my life and moving to a place where I knew hardly anyone.  And I thought holy crap, this is a really big thing that I've done.

Now, maybe it sounds silly that I hadn't recognized it before, however as I've mentioned in previous letters (most likely as a metaphor) when you are the one in the middle of it you're just doing it.  Moments of seeing your life objectively are few and far between (at least for me) perhaps because fear would have a chance to grow and overshadow the thing we were in the middle of doing.

My moment of objective clarity came on the heels of a trip back to the homeland which may well have shifted my perspective just enough to see.  I am grateful that I found the courage to make a move like this and also thankful that I could not see the magnitude of it as it may have paralyzed me with fear.  I regularly feel glad to be here.  It hasn't always been easy and it hasn't always unfolded the way I thought it would.  However, I haven't once regretted my decision to make this move. 

In the movie "Sweet Home Alabama" there is a scene in which Melanie is lamenting about her life in NYC versus her life in Alabama and how they both make sense to her.  Jake's response to her is "you can have roots and wings."  This quote ran through my mind periodically as I was preparing to make this  move.  In a completely different format I recently came across the "roots and wings" concept again.  My trip to the homeland reminded me of my roots and the goodness that I come from.  Being back here reminds me of the importance and beauty of spreading my wings. 

Be kind to yourself.  Be good to each other.  And when opportunity arises, spread your wings and fly.

Until next time...

Peace & Love,
Hope